outburst.

i have a lot of dreams. for my husband and daughter. but it'll take a great deal of patience, time and sacrifice to pull off. yes it is possible but the process of getting there will be quite a handful of emotional rollercoasters.


i am worried how my daughter's future will be like. i mean, what kind of future can we provide her. what kind of lessons will i ever teach her. what kind of parents will we ever be? i am scared, that my husband and i will not be able to provide her everything that she deserves. but, it is out of our hands whatever kind of person will she be or whatever is in store for her in the future, for it is God who knows exactly what the future holds. and in Jesus i have faith that my daughter will turn out to be better than what i'd been.


i am scared of what kind of wife i'll turn out to be. i sometimes give myself a fright when i act selfishly. i am becoming moodier, i know how to nag now, i'm becoming a spoiled brat - everything i told myself i will not be when i get married. i don't wanna be moody, i don't wanna be a nagger wife. and i wanna be the one whose spoiling my husband, not the other way around. from now on, i'll try harder not to turn out like an awful wife. and i won't waste my husband's hardwork, obedience and patience. indeed, he has loved me more than i had expected of him and more than he has loved anyone else.


GOD ABOVE ALL MY HOPES AND FEARS.