A longtime random rhapsody

february 14, 2011

there are types of arguements that are better left unsaid and undone. there are certain point of views that are better off not liberated from the context of the mind. there are thoughts that are better hidden at the back of its origin.

because in love, it really doesnt matter if you feel sad or disappointed NOW. it will always just go down to one simple certainty. that you will always be loving that person no matter how annoying his actions are. no matter how childish he can get. and no matter how insensitive he seems.

at this point in my rhapsody, i'd like to bombard my mind with thoughts worth thinking of, rather than sulk in a corner and find myself looking for a perfect arguement replacing my frustration with fury.


today, i'm racking my guts to emancipate from emotions that are not essential in living a harmonious life. i only want to accommodate emotions of optimism. i have always been pessimistic, and overwhemingly emotional. but in the midst of puberty and growing up to be an adult, i'd like to eradicate this bad habit. i'd like to think of myself as a growing tree of optimism and faith.

and yes.
my faith is the only thing that never fails me.


because there are times that i fail myself as well. when i sabotage my own thoughts with pessimism and insecurity. ergo, putting myself at the bottom. but who am i to blame other people with my emotions and perceptions? one's opinion is one's own responsibility, that no other is capable of controling over except the person in question. so i figured, i am the only one to blame when i feel down or a little bit weary. for it is "I" who only controls "me". people and other precipitating factors of negative emotions should not be blamed when i feel bad, as well as i don't blame others when i feel happy.


so when i don't feel enthusiastic waking up early or going to work or doing something profitable or accomplishing goals and tasks i'm bound to do or finishing chores or fulfilling my vague thoughts of precise possibility aside from ranting otherwise, i will pick up myself and brush myself up. i'll cut to the chase and just wrap myself with optimism. then, i'll pray to God to shower me with His never-ending patience and understanding. thus, helping me understand people regardless of them not understanding me. also, that i can be patient with all of every day's conquest and life's never-ending journey.


and with all the good things, to God be the glory.